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"Bonda" was the reason ...I started baking.It never came across my mind I'll start baking...It all just happened so fast... baked a few cakes and cuppies ...I started getting orders... So i had not much time to waste .. I had to be fast..Business is at my doorstep...I feel the passion cos one thing for sure I love to see ppl enjoy what i mixed. Even my cooking ...It is very satisfying.

You gotta stay calm and stress free when u start mixing ....It helped me ...It's a therapy.. It's helping me control MY bad Temper..I'm enjoying it ...& Hope you'll enjoy it too... visit www.dtaste.blogspot.com

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dtaste.blogspot.com

Hye all, Since I've been doing lots of baking lately I decided to create a new blog. If you wish to follow it's dtaste.blogspot.com.Hope to get your support..ya. tnx.

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Welcome home BONDA'

Dianne's bday cuppies

For Bonda

It's amazing ... Bonda is home ...she's resting and recovering. . ..Rasa lega ....betul... but it's so fragile ..she needs lots of rest....

This was my first marble cake ... ok la tu ...alhamdullilah ...

Meanwhile it was also Dianne's b'day so i made her some cuppies... but the funny part was i got her age wrongly ..hahahaaa.... apala ...adek sendiri pun x ble ingat ka...?

K...alhamdullilah mostly positive commens ... i'll just have to improve on my drawing ...

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for my friends to taste...

Chocolate cake designed by my fgs...lol....we gave this to PPUM nurses wad u12 ..token of appriciation for nursing Bonda.

Today I have discovered a new thing …. It’s one of the ways of expressing…I’m baking cakes …Can u believe it! Cup cakes!!! hehehe …the kiddo’s loved it!….

I’m stressed out since Bonda Rahmah was admitted @ PPUM just before Syawal…
We spend most of our days UP n DOWN …IN & OUT of PPUM.I’m very SAD & worried.Doc. Has diagnosed her suffering from Pneumonia and at the same time she has been a diabetic patient for many years. All my life Bonda has always been the strength for me. Everyone knows her for her good deeds and humble personality. 78Years of her life, she has never been this ill. Today she’ll undergo a major surgery and I pray all will be safe and she’ll get thru. Emotionally effected by this situation … I guess I’m much afraid to loose her. I’m still traumatized by the passing of The Queen of my heart recently.

At this time …how I wished MONEY was not an issue in my life…I could just quit my job …and take care of Bonda.Well…maybe that’s one of the reason why I’m starting to “BAKED”…who knows…
One day …it will be THE Taste , the talk of the town…Thumbs up la …cehh.. …. Everything will change. I believe..With the talent that I have, knowledge and experienced … buat hantaran, hampers, catering, direct selling …rezeki ada dimana2 it’s just how we earn it..

Someone once told me ...” If you are not happy …why live with it”I guess this is true..
(I’m working towards leaving my job…it is the environment …) I need a change! There are better things in life to look forward to…instate of being bullied.

Bersyukur sesangat for what GOD has given me …A Good husband, 4Amazing Kiddo’s …Bonda, My siblings … My FAMILY … I LOVE EVERYONE ...

YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE …and it completes’ my life!


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Our 6th Yr Wed Ann& My 33rd B'Day!

Fuhh... My beautiful Family....

It is my wedding anniversary & 33rd B'day ... 1st of all i wanted to have a quiet dinner some place romantic la... ( Konon ) but knowing my hubby who's ...so ...so...the opossite ..hmm... second thoughts la pulak ...thn since it's still Raya & we havent had frenz & relative come to dhse ... we thought we'll just have some mkn2 ... and we had ...ALL IN 1 CELEBRATION!...

Although it was not a settle feeling ... cos it's just not the same ...whn Bonda is not around to share the occasion ( She's still in U.h)I miss her...

But it was a supprise whn my Ate Rachel came with a Big Present for me ... tnx Chel.

Thanks to all who came ...hope you guys enjoyed the food ... & apa yg kureng tu ... Ampun maaf di pinta...

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Raya...

Hye All, It's been a while since i last blogd.Dis Raya memang tak raya sgt sbb Bonda Rahmah was admitted in U.H last few days of Ramadhan. First, we were all very excited over our " PURPLE TheMe" and dis year raya kat rumah Tok Yan ... ...tetiba all dis happened... so mood raya pun DROP....ped 85%.But never the less ... everything happend for a reason .. today Bonda is recovering ... i hope she'll be home soon... meanwhile my FGM left for GERMAny lastnite ... she would be away for the next one month...

Was suppose to take RIRAZIRA for holiday ...we cancelled our trip... AGAIN ...everything happened for a reason ...it's a blessings ..My sista's Dianne & Rachel came with my two nieces Leana & Ashley we spend the whole day with the kids... took them out to playland ...tnx to Art Chel ...

Tomorrow will visit Bonda ...

Hope Bonda will leave U.H soon to come home with good health!

Insyallah ...

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Finally ... The verbal craft class is over ...!

Fuhh … I’m done with The Verbal Craft Course. A- 48 hour Course took place since March this year…finally …. I graduated on the 20th August 2009. When Andal (Facilitator) told me everyone has to give a speech I was not exited at all. Instate me wanted to back off…. But after thinking it over …why should …after all the trouble …balik lambat …menyusahkan orang lain …all dat …tetiba nak back off… tak berbaloi… Lucky thing also Andal has selected me to be the Emcee. So at 1st I thought okey la …lega sikit not so bad but after dat she did mention I have to tell why did I joined the class and wht did it benefit me .. So …not all that easy. But I guess challenging la , at least I could use it for my future events.
One day before the graduation, was doing the preparation and the graduation was suppose to be a small gathering among us and suddenly questions after questions … Is Mr. President attending … who else attending … and after 5.30pm received an email … Mr. President is attending followed by our Executive Director, Corporate Services & Group. Human Capital and there you go …. From a small celebration it turns out to be a Protocol thingy!
Early morning 20th August, double checked and make sure everything will be in order dis afternoon. Okey all guest arrived at The Centrum training Room @3pm. VIP walked in 15mins later. Everything went on well … 8participants gave their speeches. o key la overall … Ada yang masih macam Mind Your language Class ..LOL…. Jangan marah ye ..but funla . Among us dah ada dat bounding.
Thank goodness my FGS was available on dat day to come all the way to take photographs. So nice of her… We also bragged her to Nasi bubur and life after dat. …. Sing a long time …..
We had planned to go for Nasi Bubur dat evening …all were looking forward to “SURAYA” KGB our favourite spot for nasi bubur and also the Manggo sticky rice dessert.. But unfortunately it was closed. HAMPA.So, second option we went to JOHAN … hahahaha.. also closed. Gosh… what a day …I think they must be preparing to SAMBUT RAMADHAN… anyways … probably some other time. We ended up in this not so nice place called NURI SEAFOOD …we still ordered Nasi Bubur berlauk but we’re just not happy bout the taste cos we’ve had better and all so looking forward to Suraya.Hmmm…
It was about to rain heavily … Jewel ( Intan ) suggested we go KARAOKE …. Lalalala.a…. hmmm…. I was up to it but only if they went to AEON AU2 so the Gals agreed… we went karaoke…ing … I still believe … yg tak bole bela tu … Angin bayu membawa diriku …..Wakakakaa….. Haruskah kita mencari … yg paling funny tu … lagu Bon Jovi pun ada yg nyanyi … Okey la bak kata Jewel … sebelum puasa ni kan … hehehee
We called it a nite at about 10pm just after the rain stopped.

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Hadeeja Cafe - Kek Lapis Sarawak

Tnx to Mr. President who assigned me to take a look at Hadeeja Cafe Ukay Perdana for our next coming event. The restorant owned by Deja Moss & Anuar Zain . When i had to do this ... 1st thing caME to mind was my FGS ( Fairy God Sista ). Alhamdullilah she agreed to take me thr even though she was down with flu... We 1st got lost for a while till i called Andy the restorant mgr... n he directed us thr. We were actually round the corner but we missed the restorant cos the sign was not up yet.Nice cafe.. i like . We ordered the Nasi Ayam hitam ...or something ... Cool ...something different la ... Laksa Sarawak ...so ...so la.... not to my liking ..my FGS said like kuah Jamu .... hehehee... Mee kolok ...Boleh tahan la .. it's something like dried Wantan Noodle...but the Kek Lapis Sarawak ..thumbs up! I'll Rate as 4stars. We tasted the lapis biasa , hati pari, lapis cheese ... and the best was coffee flavor! I wish Hadeeja Cafe a journey to succes!

Moving On ...

Hye All... rasa cam dah lama tak blog ... Fuhh... "Ma Sakit Ang Ulu ko .." pening pening ... carik rezki lebih untuk keluarga ... kerja ...kerja ...kerja ... How i wish i could just stick to business and quit my 9-5 job. Tu target aku in the next 2-3 years la .. I want out la ... from dat office .... Lama sgt dah ...Like part of the furniture pun... I need to berhijrah...

In life ... sometimes we need to berhijrah .....as the journey continues ... we need changes- Positive changes ...kan.

I want sometime with the kiddo's ... time for myself.... time for business ... time to just lazzzzzz ... quality time with hubby ... all dat la ... lagipun in two years ... Rizq will be in primary One ... and i wanna concentrate on him going to school.

I'm not saying i tak " Bersyukur " dgn apa yg ada skrg ... i know it's not easy without a job these days but all im saying is, it could be better... healthier env..

I know it will Happen in time ... but let's make it happen faster ...
Dah tak motivated langsung nak kerja kat office tu ... boring ah ... ppl don't appriciate your efforts ... all they do is find your weakness.

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Dulang...

We are sitted here @ this place called "Dulang" ...in KgB.1st impression... Okey, food here got good variety. But the service is so slow. If they continue to go on like this i think they'll loose the croud. Nak order air pun berjam jam... Ask to wipe the table... they ask us to shift to the next table...alasan...kain lap busuk... boleh gitu...hmmm... tu la dia ... Tempat dah best ... upgrade la service ..k.... Wifi ada... okey la tu ...

Birthdays...

I actually wrote this on the 1st of July - MA's Birthday !

Okey …now we’re done with all the parties ….


Hubbies birthday also round the corner but x MAJOR Celebration. I’m actually in denial … today is MA’s b’day and I usually call it INCOME TAX Day … Gone to get some flowers for MA yesterday and Dion came to take the flowers go visit MA. I bought a slice of carrot cake for Dion and Cas so dat they have something to eat and share their time with MA.I didn’t go together with them 1st I don’t think I can make it … I’m really feeling EMO rite now and @ work pun …susah nak chow sbb bosses around.

MA, I did Rizq Boy’s 5th birthday and it was your wish. He wore his Barong during cake cutting and Arra came in as his princess. They were so cute.. ( Some may say ...elehhh... like Kampung only ... must have theme party ... ) So what who cares ... not spending your money !


Many did not turn up but it’s okey , yg penting the kids had fun. Thank you Ninang Fyra for the lovely princess cupcakes …it was lovely. Many thanx , to our guest that shared their time with us. Even though it was a busy weekend for many of us but still you guys made time for the kiddo’s party (Appreciate!).

To AimiShaz (Fyra’s fren) who did the princess cupcakes for Arra … Lovely. She loved it!

Lepas ni … nak concentrate puasa dulu later baru fikir pasal yang lain - lain. Kalau ada rezeki lebih my birthday dis year I nak buat Open House hari raya.. .. Mcm tak percaya kan I’ll be 33 in sept & it’s also my 6th wedding anniversary.



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Malaysian thinking or .....

Why Malaysian’s have this concept...

I’m throwing a party for my kiddo’s, it’s my prerogative who I’m inviting …betul tak ? I don’t understand la … kenapa kalau aku invite … “A” aku kena invite “B” lak … suka hati aku la … mcm orng buat wedding kat hotel ke …tmpt exclusive … it’s expensive … n they won’t invite the entire clan … they’ll just invite the elders kan… nak jaga hati orng sgt ..pocket sendiri yg kopak…

Dis time I had enough… I’m not giving in … I’ll invite who ever I feel like inviting.
Ada a few cousins, nephew & nieces yg ada anak kecik … I nak invite them but … ppl are questioning why them … wht about their mother , father … grandmother …wah…wah…. Ini mcm tauke balak pun bankrupt la … Sebenarnya ..if you are not invited pun what’s the big deal …

I’ve made up my mind … and I’m going with my instinct and with sincerity … I’m inviting them!

Happy 5th Birthday to Rizq & 4th Birthday to Arra !

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Hipokrit City

Ha …dis is not Restaurant City but Hipokrit City ! Never knew it exists till I actually worked in the political office ( typical ) 9-5am job. I guess these things happen but I never realize cos I believe… when we are honest and sincere we expect others to be to … well dats not what it is … It can really “HURT” when you actually find out that it’s all part of the show ( basically acting je .. ). Not only feeling unsecured to be walking home alone … ( takut kena ragut..ke .. u know desperado dis days )…but also feel the same way about choosing the right circle of friends…scary doh… they not only sleep in your blanket they step you hidup-hidup..! Sometimes I wonder will this meet justice. It’s just like the saying “The poor Get’s poorer… The rich gets richer” …Be it la …work place …relatives this ppl exist okey …reality bites …I know ! Double standard … materialistic …plastic ..u name it … I’ve meet them & still meeting one everyday. Somethings ..ya betul …we say things like “hmm… Nice cake that u baked … Konon nak jaga hati kawan .. Fine with me ” but unbelievable if you start asking a person HOW ARE YOU TODAY ? but at the same time u just walking thru without even stopping and looking in the eye of the person you speaking to … so wht the hack you asking for !!!

I’ll be 33 in sept’ I’ve walked along the walked …. I’ve seen ppl with masked all around me … it’s even worst thn “The Survivor” . When you’re UP they think the world of you …busuk pun boleh jadi wangi … but when you’re DOWN … they avoid you …jgn kata nak call Tanya khabar …kita call to keep in touch …they think we calling to ask for their RM…well,I don’t know if you can take that to the after life…it’s most hurtful if they are related to you ! Sama la … kalau kita ada family members yg terjebak dgn drugs ke …. We stay away …avoid them …look at them so JIJIK …. So wht do you think orng kt luar fikir pasal orng ni ? Patut kita family … we are supposed to be the strength to help one another bukan KUTUK lagi …. Ni tak … DAh jatuh …DI timpa pulak ! I’m sorry … I always have this feeling that a family should always be able to sit , pray, laugh , cry together share all the memorable occasions …but when dah ada conflict of interest … it’s SAD la … tu la … jangan kata The BIG PICTURE … sedangkan our siblings pun belum tentu suma suka makan IKAN ! When ppl asked me “How many siblings do you have” reaction “ WOW …. Ramainya.. Yup reality! But when it comes to understanding 3 out of 8 pun belum tentu…I believe kalau ada siblings aku yg baca ni pun …muka dah herot berot… well.. aftr MA passaway it became even worst …We can hardly agree on one color.R.E.S.P.E.C.T yg MA ajar suma da TER… KUBUR! Lessons learn! I will only stand by my promise to MA selagi mampu …I hope with all this It will help me sharpen the saw … and continue my Journey as A GOOD WIFE & BE THE BEST MOTHER to the kiddo’s .. .


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Sun Set to Sun Rise

Funny, how the journey moves in a circle from sunset to sunrise. As I remember my yester years, Sun set’s in and I’m ready to paint the town “RED”. That’s what days were like…hmm… How Sky was the limit for me ..as my bro Don says : “For you Nie Sky is the Limit” well… Those days are gone. ..
All that’s left is just memories …. Some I’d like to remember …some I’d like to erase (if there’s a special eraser …hahahah..) some better left unsaid. Something’s that I’m passionate about ( like singing ) I miss the stage once in awhile but if I have to choose life rite now I’d rather be with “RIRAZIRA” .
I must say, this journey is rarely different from the other routes… (I guess) everyone has their own share and this is my path. I Thank GOD for loving me …and giving me the opportunity to live again!
9th February 1999 I was born again in the name of ISLAM …. It was the time I saw everything PURE & SIMPLE. Having my BONDA & Fairy God Father witness my destiny of FAITH is one of my momentous experiences of my life…
I am happy and proud I made the right pronouncement. One step at the time … A few little baby steps … and I fell of course! Like wearing the TUDUNG … I drastically made the decision to wear the TUDUNG and found that I was not ready… so I seek to understand than to be understood .Now I made my vows and I’ll stand by it.
Now im saying ALOHA to sunrise … and goodnite to sunset ! It’s totally a different culture rite now( PPL Say : When in ROME…do what the roman’s do … ) First was a bit hard to adapt bangun pagi all dat but I needed the change so paksa la …Okey … new environment … meet new faces … walk the different path…. It’s reality of life … in the broad day light… it’s not easy .. but it’s the journey ….
The time has arrive, sounds of The KOMPANG … ke pak …ke bum…ke pah ke bum…ceh… See I told ya...God Loves me … funny how the journey had to take the long way…no highway or express MRR 2… Faith was right in front of my nose just round the city (KgB lagi.. ) ha ..so hari raya bolah balik kampung …mana? Kampung Baru !( So far ..hehehe…. ) The man of my life… the person who I choose to live with and continue this journey…
We settled down in 2003 … and look what life has to offer us … We definitely took the express way . .. We not wasting any more time …We are blessed with four adorable kiddo’s and The Journey continues …..

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Time flies ...

It’s funny how a cup of coffee can change your view or even make your day!
Yup ..yup.. I certainly feel incomplete without having a cup in the morning.

Woh .. time flies … each days passes so quickly until I didn’t even notice … my son Rizq is about to turn five this coming 21st june. My late mom has always reminded me to celebrate birthdays …be it the 1st 5th 12th 16th 21st and personally i choose 33rd 40th( For men ) woman don’t usually wanna celebrate 40th b’day BIG ..kan..kan…hahaha…
Then the BIG 50th 55th 64th 72nd 77th and every year of 80’s if we ever get there …insyallah… with good health. Amin.

Well, Rizq wants to have his frens over for his birthday with a BEN 10 concept …haa.. typical boys… thingy . I’m not approving anything yet , I’m tired of organizing parties at the moment but when I think of Ma I just don’t have the heart to not celebrate the occasion .He also wants to move in his own room now.I guess i got to let GO a few things now .He is such a big boy, he is so matured, takes care of his siblings, clean his play room, calls me up every once in awhile …report …report … what happened during the day … thinking of those sleepless nite’s , time he had chicken pox WOW…that was tough and how I cried looking at him barring the pain …funny how a “Mickey balloon” worked to ease his pain ! Rizq, went to a playschool when he was 3++ so cute at that time. We took him for “Open Day” 3different play schools … o...boy I must say... He knew where to call home and make himself comfortable. 5years seems too fast, my prince became a KUYA when he actually turns 1year one week and so on …year after year …siblings after siblings..wakakkaa…

MOHD RIZQ HAIKAL BIN MOHD FARID - 21st JUNE 2004

GAVE ME A NEW TITLE ...& THE JOURNEY CONTINUES...

Queen of my heart

Woke up and finally found that I couldn’t hear your voice, touch your hand or be in your arms ….
I have realized it is the voice of the angel. I must be strong now I mustn’t break down. I have lost a listener the shelter of all times! You own the strongest strength one can have. Yes Ma, You really did!
You are the queen of my heart! I Miss you so so much. It’s indescribable feeling (Only God Knows).
You’ll never know, until you lose them. Cherish every moment you have with the one you love.

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