Ha …dis is not Restaurant City but Hipokrit City ! Never knew it exists till I actually worked in the political office ( typical ) 9-5am job. I guess these things happen but I never realize cos I believe… when we are honest and sincere we expect others to be to … well dats not what it is … It can really “HURT” when you actually find out that it’s all part of the show ( basically acting je .. ). Not only feeling unsecured to be walking home alone … ( takut kena ragut..ke .. u know desperado dis days )…but also feel the same way about choosing the right circle of friends…scary doh… they not only sleep in your blanket they step you hidup-hidup..! Sometimes I wonder will this meet justice. It’s just like the saying “The poor Get’s poorer… The rich gets richer” …Be it la …work place …relatives this ppl exist okey …reality bites …I know ! Double standard … materialistic …plastic ..u name it … I’ve meet them & still meeting one everyday. Somethings ..ya betul …we say things like “hmm… Nice cake that u baked … Konon nak jaga hati kawan .. Fine with me ” but unbelievable if you start asking a person HOW ARE YOU TODAY ? but at the same time u just walking thru without even stopping and looking in the eye of the person you speaking to … so wht the hack you asking for !!!
I’ll be 33 in sept’ I’ve walked along the walked …. I’ve seen ppl with masked all around me … it’s even worst thn “The Survivor” . When you’re UP they think the world of you …busuk pun boleh jadi wangi … but when you’re DOWN … they avoid you …jgn kata nak call Tanya khabar …kita call to keep in touch …they think we calling to ask for their RM…well,I don’t know if you can take that to the after life…it’s most hurtful if they are related to you ! Sama la … kalau kita ada family members yg terjebak dgn drugs ke …. We stay away …avoid them …look at them so JIJIK …. So wht do you think orng kt luar fikir pasal orng ni ? Patut kita family … we are supposed to be the strength to help one another bukan KUTUK lagi …. Ni tak … DAh jatuh …DI timpa pulak ! I’m sorry … I always have this feeling that a family should always be able to sit , pray, laugh , cry together share all the memorable occasions …but when dah ada conflict of interest … it’s SAD la … tu la … jangan kata The BIG PICTURE … sedangkan our siblings pun belum tentu suma suka makan IKAN ! When ppl asked me “How many siblings do you have” reaction “ WOW …. Ramainya.. Yup reality! But when it comes to understanding 3 out of 8 pun belum tentu…I believe kalau ada siblings aku yg baca ni pun …muka dah herot berot… well.. aftr MA passaway it became even worst …We can hardly agree on one color.R.E.S.P.E.C.T yg MA ajar suma da TER… KUBUR! Lessons learn! I will only stand by my promise to MA selagi mampu …I hope with all this It will help me sharpen the saw … and continue my Journey as A GOOD WIFE & BE THE BEST MOTHER to the kiddo’s .. .
Salam…
